A Hard Day.

If you havent yet read my latest two posts (I didn’t share them on facebook, so here are the links!)
http://wp.me/p5GvDb-ez
http://wp.me/p5GvDb-eC

I need to let some stuff out, so I apologise if I get a bit heated or if I upset anyone.

Even though I am pretty open about my illnesses, I hate showing how Ill I am. I try to hide it from you all as much as I can – mainly to protect you all, and sometimes its because I feel it makes me weak to tell you how I feel.

But – in all honesty? I am struggling to stay positive today. I’m having to deal with all my emotions and feelings in a very different way and its not made me feel better.

I just want this extra pain to stop. I’m in enough pain usually as it is, but at the moment… Everything is soooo hard!

I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I just want to be normal. I want to be able to get through the day without taking so many pain meds, I mean COME ON, I tske enough medication as it is!
I just want to go back to college. I just want to be doing normal things.
More than anything I want to be able to be the positive LanaLoo that I normally am, but today that seems impossible. Today I’m struggling.

Tomorrow, I’m hoping to be positive again.
I’ll try my best I promise.

I love you all

L xxx

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About The Inconsiderate Cripple

Hi there, I'm the inconsiderate cripple. Welcome to the world through my eyes. I'm Lana, a 19 year old crazy person with chronic illness/disability living for the moment. my blogs a bit weird, a bit 'out there' and a bit well... me. Welcome and Hopefully - You'll stay with me on this journey!
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