(Just a little letter to faith. I might do a few of these- I have spoken to her parents and they said its perfectly ok to talk about her and about the recent events to do with her)
Everytime I get a delivery from a certain company recently, its a man called Mario that hands it to me. We’ve got a great rapport building you know. We’ve got a little game going on. Everytime he rocks up at my house, he talks about a different famouse person called either Lana or Alana (yeah don’t go there faithy, I know youd be laughing by now – you always laughed at my face when anyone ever called me by my sunday name of Alana.). So far we’ve had all sorts from Alanna Knight to Lana Del Ray. Sometimes he’ll even start singing. The other day I was in a foul mood. I’m talking F O U L. He arrived and I was just not in the mood… then who was that days famous Lana?
LANA PARRILLA. Your Favourite actress, and one of my favourite actresses, one who I came to love – because of you faithy. I then spent 15 minutes talking to this Mario guy about lana parrilla. I found us another evil regal in Mario the delivery guy.
He came back today and did the evil regal hand sign when I opened the door. I was so so so impressed. It really did crack me up.
It brought back a whole lot of memories of time with you, and how you LOVED Lana Parrilla, and Once Upon A Time.
I sat and read through our old texts.
It took you such a long time for you to convince me to watch OUAT.
You sent me text after text saying how amazing it was and that I would L O V E ‘Regina’ and the actress that plays her (Lana Parrilla).
My favourite text you sent was “LANA PUSEY YOU NEED TO FRIGGIN WATCH THIS FRIGGIN SHOW FOR FRIGS SAKE YOU TWAT. YOULL LOVE IT. AND IF YOU DONT YOU STILL HAVE TO WATCH IT BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME. YOULL LOVE LANA TOO BECAUSE SHES GORGEOUS AND AMAZING AND JUST FUCKING FAB. AND YOU FRIGGIN HAVE THE SAME LAUGH AND YOU’RE BOTH L P ‘s AND SAME SENSE OF HUMOUR SO JUST LOVE HER AND WATCH IT PLEASE”
My favourite voicemails from you were the ones from all around that time. the hilarious ones where you tried to convince me to watch OUAT. The ones where you would ring me and just put the phone next to your laptop speakers. So I had voicemail after voicemail of you just playing OUAT down the phone at me and at the end of each one youd scream YOU WILL BE AN EVIL REGAL.
I eventually watched it just to shut you up and fell in love with the show as you well know. The smug look on your face as I face-timed you after watching the first episode.
It took me a while to watch beyond the first season due to everything else going on.
In fact it wasn’t until after you died that I watched beyond the third season.
I wish I hadn’t waited so long.
It’s funny because there are so many other shows that you tried to convince me to watch. I haven’t gotten round to them yet. but you really were right. I do love OUAT and I do adore Lana Parrilla. just like you did and just like you said I would.
And you know what? I AM proud to be an evil regal.
I want to say thank you to you in this letter. I certainly wasn’t expecting your dad to turn up a week before my 20th birthday with presents from you. Already wrapped and ready for me to open.
I certainly didn’t expect a bright green mankini and a happy birthday cake hat thing.
I probably SHOULDVE expected it with you. Always have to have the last word don’t you.
Your dad explained about all the letters they’re finding around the house, in your things, in your aunties house and land.
Trust you to go all PS I love you on us. Hiding letters everywhere. pre wrapping presents with instructions.
I know why you’re doing it. You were scared you’d be forgotten. I get it.
I forgive you for leaving me by the way. I know why you did and sure I was pissed at you at first, but I get it now. You said you were sorry the last time we spoke on the phone, just hours before you went. When I asked you what you were sorry for you said “for yawning”. But it wasn’t for yawning was it.
Do you remember why I sang Demons to you a week before you died on the phone? I only remembered about it because you texted me saying “thank you for singing Demons tonight it helped distract me.” and re reading our texts brought it back to me. I know you kept laughing saying “Its a lana parrilla song and a lana pusey song how fabulous” – but I honestly cant remember what I was distracting you from, or why that song in particular was being sung. I wish you were here to ask. I’m constantly singing it to myself trying to remember. (that and I DO Love the song, you knew that though.)
Another song that keeps making me think of you is “lets have a kiki”. That time when we were waiting, You were so shocked when this was playing through your speakers and I knew e v e r y single word and even did my own little dance up and down the corridor. When it was over, you were like ” HAVE YOU TAKEN YOUR STRONG MEDS YOU PRAT?” – and I replied, simply with “nope I just really like the scissor sisters ” and calmly sat back down next to you and carried on the conversation from before the song started.
You’ll be pleased to know I still have mrs foggins. – I still hate her, sorry but its true. shes freaky. Who the hell keeps a toy orville with them 24/7 and calls it mrs foggins. (well you ofcourse)
I miss you.
I really do.
I’m moving at some point soon. Its excited scary and everything in between. Wish you were here to see it all happen.
I often wonder whether you’re actually with my NatNat now. You probably are. she’s probably corrupted you and got you pissed everynight up there. I hope you have met. She would’ve found you funny.
Love you shrimps xx
your beanie xx